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Heard from Charles yesterday!!  Actually heard his voice.  He was back in safe country where he could actually call me.  Think it has been almost 2 1/2 weeks!!  He still isn’t back where he needs to be but at least I know he is safe.  They are so close to where they need to be but two of their trucks hit each other so now they have all that paperwork to do before they can move on.  And a one star general is there and isn’t very happy.  I know that he must be so tired and just want to shower and rest.  I can’t imagine being away from home that long even if I wasn’t on the road in a war zone!  God bless my husband!!  Just so happy and thankful to God that he made it back safely and will soon be able to get some much needed rest.

I love my church family.  Let me start by stating that.  Charles never tells me what he does and I really don’t know much about what he does.  two reasons………….he can’t or shouldn’t tell me and also I really don’t want to know.  Sunday night was our church harvest festival.  As we start the praise and worship I get texts on my phone from Charles that they are trying to head south (I am paraphrasing for security reasons but basically means he is on the road going to safety).  He said that they had small arms fire and I.E.D’s so had to turn back.  I was soooooooooooo trying to hold back tears.  I sat all alone and ate my dinner.  Two wonderful women from my church family came up to me and asked the worst/best question they could have asked. “how are you doing, have you heard from charles” that is all it took.  I broke down and sobbed.  I couldn’t help it.  I try to be strong and hold up for my kids and all those around me.  Tiring to hear what a strong woman I am when I know that is so not true!

Well these two lovely women took my hands and put their arms around me and embraced me.  They hugged me and prayed over me.  It was one of the most amazing prayers I have ever heard although I can’t remember it since I was bawling like a baby.  but afterwards I felt so wonderful.  I had such peace.  thank you Lord for my church family.  It is such an amazing thing to have.  I have been at churches that would not have been there for me when I needed them. I just thank God that i have such wonderful people in my life that truly truly love me and when they say “I am praying for you” I really know that they mean it.

I watched the season premiere of “Little People Big World” today. It was a re-run from last week but I had missed it.

Matt (the Father) went to Iraq to visit an Iraqi family that he found out about from a friend. Of the families 5 children, 3 of them are dwarfs. I have been solemn ever since I watched it. Matt had many delays on his flights just getting to Kuwait. He also got stuck in Kuwait for several days just trying to get into Baghdad. Once he got there though it really hit me. He was driving with military security thru some very dangerous spots and it made me realize just what my husband goes through. I realized how he must be on edge all the time while driving on the road over there. It made me realize the true amazing sacrifice that all of our soldiers go thru over there. I felt very tense and uptight while I watched Matt in that Army vehicle wondering what might happen next. Now I think I truly understand why he was so on edge when he came home the first time. Always having to look over your shoulder and always worrying about what might happen next!

I do hope that the show will update on what happened with the children. Matt took X-rays and pictures back to the states to a Doctor. These children actually have a fatal type of dwarfism. The one thing that also amazed me was the sweet sweet spirit of these children, despite their condition.

This show really touched me on so many different levels.

Just a little update for Charles. Saturday morning Mom drove all the way out here and picked the kids up at 7 a.m…..took them to breakfast and then to New Life Beginnings for a work party. The lady that runs the place was worried that not enough people would show up and they would have women and children with nowhere to go. God is great! There were so many people that Geron had to call some and tell them to take the day off, they weren’t needed. Mom ended up dropping the kids off and going home since there was nothing for her to do. I went to Cindy’s wedding shower. It was at a tea house in Brea. We had so much fun!! Cindy says she isn’t social but she had almost 40 women there and some even cancelled. The scones were the best I have ever tasted in my entire life. They had about 100 different teas and I think I tried about 6 of them……..yes I was even more wired than normal for me! Went to church this morning and Ed Heida handed me the most beautiful poem ever (i emailed it to you charles) I am going to frame it and put it in our bedroom. He is really an amazing man and has a wonderful insight into what I feel and what I am going thru!! Mom and the kids and I tried to go to the movies to see “the express, the ernie davis story” but the first theater we went to was closed til about 4 p.m., tech. difficulties. The 2nd theater we went to didn’t start any movies til about 4 and we have small group at 5. So we opted to have lunch at Islands. Then we went back to Mom’s and rested a bit, then went to small groups at 5. Just as I started to eat Shelby came and told me that she wasn’t feeling well, she looked awful and felt warm. So off we went to home. Now it is Sunday night and the beginning of another week without you. I know that with all the prayers from my brothers and sisters in Christ and with God himself I will get thru this week. I also know that with the love that you have for me I can get thru anything!!!! You are my rock and my world and I love you! Thank you for doing what you do. You are a true warrior and hero and me and the kids appreciate you more than you will ever know. I only hope that I can show you and tell you how much!

Happy Anniversary Honey!!

Tuesday Oct. 7th marks our 13th year married.  I see couples that don’t make it that long.   I saw one today at Sam’s Club (a much older couple) that I wondered how they ever made it that long!  He was yelling at her over their hot dog mix up (apparently he was supposed to have the polish sausage and she grabbed the wrong one), you would have thought she had cut his ear off or something.  He went on about it for over 15 minutes!! Made me sad that she put up with it……….but I digress………….. 

I am the luckiest woman in the world and I know that I chose very wisely.  He cherishes me and adores me and would do anything for me.  I think the reason that we have stayed together is that I feel the same about him.  There are so many couples that are very selfish and have the “it’s all about me” attitude.  It’s very easy to settle into that but over the years I have realized that it’s not all about me.  Men need to know that they are loved and appreciated just as much as women do.  I have found that men are pretty easy creatures to please.  Don’t nag, don’t boss, give lots of praise, show them how much you appreciate them, smile alot, be a good Mom to your kids, basically be to them what you would want them to be to you.  I didn’t learn this overnight of course, there are many times when I haven’t been so wonderful but I am glad he stayed anyway.  🙂

So on this day I want to tell Charles that I love him very much and he is my warrior, my hero and my best friend!! 

Thank you Charles!!

Of course everyone knows that the economy is not doing well, that is not a secret.  I work for a glass / glazing company that dealt mostly with big money builders.  Well those builders don’t have much money anymore and neither do we.  We are blessed to still be in business, but my boss is a christian and gave the company over to God many months ago.  Thank you!!  Well today he moved all of my office furniture into my garage so starting tomorrow I will work from home.  I wasn’t sure how this would feel but I am estatic!!!  Shelby told me tonight “hey Mom now if I am sick you don’t have to take me to work with you, well I just have to come out to the garage”  LOL!!  With Charles being gone and all the responsibilites I have taken on, it is a breath of fresh air to be able to work from home.  Now we just have to get the internet hooked up out there and I will be happy camper!  I am truly blessed!!